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Well, needless to say the year has started off rather interestingly enough. Even moreso it's been an interesting way to end my time as a 26 year old.
Initally when the year began, I learned a friend of mine had given birth to her first child. As such, she decided to take a leave form internet social life to dedicate more time her her child. It's rather admirable of her, and I wish her all the best with her and her child.
But it got me to thinking about some things. Namely the idea of possibly eventually giving up on the fandoms and social media eventually to try and lead a life outside of the internet. Hence the poll I posted at the beginning of the year. It was something I wanted to ask to see how you guys would handle such an inevitability or keep going with your online lives.
As for me, I don't know about giving those things up anytime soon. I have to many friends I care about and I enjoy the things I do too much right now. Maybe in time I might but not anytime soon.
Then recently I found out one of my fellow VAs had a crush on me. I, in turn, admitted the same since I did have a past interest in the guy but didn't act on it. We decided to take things slowly despite my warning him that online relationships are hard to maintain without two people willing to make the effort.
But as the week progress, drama began to form over time and in the midst of possibly having found love again I rushed into things too soon by saying some things that were best left unsaid until I was certain he was the one.
Well, the drama of the week, coupled with lack of sleep over a few days and the added stress of Miss Sherry and her husband returning from their holiday vacation finally became too much for me to bare and I broke down at work at least twice. It did feel good to cry it out, but I felt horrible afterwards that I went to bed early to try and sleep it off.
Well the sleep did me some real good since I got to sleep in late for a change and after talking it over with the guy I came to realize something. I realized that I had been acting on my emotions and rushed into something I wasn't ready for. I didn't feel any romantic interest in him and was rising on the high of possibly being in love again that I didn't see the truth behind it.
Thankfully the guy also understood and we decided to go back to being friends and letting ourselves get to know one another slowly. If things work out between us then we can move on beyond that. If not, then at least there's no love lost between us and we'll remain friends.
For now, I see that I still have a lot of emotional growing up to do. That I was acting out of the need to be in love and to be with someone just to stave off the idea of being all alone. I guess I still have to heal from my breakup from Thomas before I can even think of getting into another relationship. I'm pretty embarrassed by how this all happened and I wanna put it all behind me and move on.
So I wanna apologize to those involved and hope that things go back to the way they were before all this happened. For better or worst, I don't want to loose any of my friends to my stupid actions. So please forgive me...
With that said, hopefully the last remaining days until my birthday will help end by time at 26 on a good note and give me something to look forward to when I turn 27~ ^^